It's Been All Too Long!

Well, it's been all too long since I updated with what is going on in my life. I got moved into my new place and I absolutely love it. We have way more space and it just feels better. I can't remember a time when I was this happy and everything was going so good for me. The only bad part about life right now is it is Christmas time and I don't have alot of money right now. With the moving and coming up with deposits it has really strapped me for money. I think I have finally found a goood balance in my life. Shawn and I are getting along so good right now which I love very much.

TITANS VS. TEXANS

I would like to say that it is absolutely ridiculous that this happened. These players are role models to millions of people, including children. This kind of behavior should be unacceptable. I am a football fan and to have to watch something like this go on is utterly annoying. These men are paid millions of dollars to play football. If I worked at Wal-Mart and a customer did something to piss me off, I don't get to kick their ass in the store. They should always keep in mind that it is your job and they get paid to deal with situations like this.

A Good Day!

I'm been having a really good couple of days. For the most part I am hanging in there. I am really missing Trey tonight, I wish he was home to cuddle with me. Things will get alot better when I am all moved and I have something to keep me busy, like unpacking and decorating. I miss my dad, I wish he was around more to do dumb things with me. Like have lunch or just hang out. I am in no way ready for the cold weather it is depressing and sucks all around. I miss the summer when you can actually go outside and enoy it. I am just babbling on about absolutely nothing. So I am going to go to bed now.

Tired!

I'm so tired of sitting around at night and not sleeping. Night time is the worst time because everyone in their right mind is in bed but, me. I don't want to be up all night long. I just lay around on the couch watching movies and hopeing to fall asleep. Tonight was really dead at work. We  are all very worried about Don, he had a heart attack. Not sure how bad it was yet. Don't think we will know anymore until tomorrow. What am I going to do with myself this weekend. No bars or drinking for me. Maybe I will go to town and visit somebody. I also miss my Tami so so much. I need to go see her really soon.

Everything Has Finally Changed!

Well time has finally come that my entire life has changed, for the better. I am finally out of my off again, on again 6 year relationship. That happens alot but, this time its for real. I acted in a very ridiculous matter. So matter years of being pushed down and talked to like shit, what would you expect. Oh well, enough about that. I also met a nice guy, not a guy I am involved with. Someone that is having as much crap going on in his life as I have going on in mine. Just very refreshing to have someone to talk to things about. I also am hopeing to find a part  time job soon, so that I have something else to do with my time. Moving will be good for me to. It will keep all my attention focused on what I have got going on. Treyton and I are doing really good. He was pretty good at school last week. No hitting anyways. I am feeling overwhelmed with the whole moving process, I forgot how bad it sucked to pack and move all your crap. It's just a total pain in the ass. At least I can get rid of alot of crap that I don't need. I had a good time last night I went to hang out with a friend of mine that I haven't seen in so long. I had really missed hanging out with her. She got totally messed up and got sick but, fun all the same. Now that I have all these expenses coming up I'm not real thrilled about the holidays anymore. I'm sure that will change once I get moved and start putting up Christmas decorations. We will see though I am gonna go for now and try to get something done.

What Do I need To Do To Get My 4 Year Old To Stop Hitting?

My 4 year old son goes to daycare and to preschool, he is having alot of trouble with hitting the other kids. I am at a lose for what to do. I rarely ever spank him him and in no way am I ever excessive in spanking. I have tried talking to him and telling him that hitting will not be tolerated. He never gives a good reason for the abuse. He will say because tey were bothering him, or i don't know. His father and I have joint custody therefore live in seperate homes. So we actually split the week. I have him during the days and half of the nights in the week. I don't know why he is acting this way. If it's attention, how do I, as a parent, deal with this situation? The teacher and the daycare providers all tell me it is happening for no reason. I'm concerned that they are not seeing whats happening before the abuse to know what is triggering it. I don't want to have my son abusing other peoles children. Please help me out, I need all the advice I can get.
I'll add some other information about our situation. I pick my son up from his dad on Sunday night at 8pm and he goes to bed about 930. He has school at 9am, so he gets up at about 8am. He stays with me until Wednesday at 4pm. Thats when he goes back to his dads. His dad says he puts him to bed at 830pm at night and he gets up at 630am. Then he gets dropped of at daycare at 8am. I then pick him up from daycare at 10am on Thursday morning. He goes back to his dads at 4pm on Thursday. On Friday morning he again gets up at 630 am and gets dropped off at daycare at 8am. Then at 9am he goes straight from daycare to preschool until 11am. Thats when I pick him up. His preschool teacher says Friday is by far his worst day, he only goes to school Monday, Wednesday, Friday. So that is a little about our schedule. Please Please help me out with this.

Lucky Me!

Well, I have neglected to post to my blog for the last few days. No alot has happened but, I can tell you this. Cutting my hours at work was a really bad idea the weekend I didn't work. My loan officer at the bank called me about renting his house and I did it. I'm not sure if it was a good idea or not. I have been wanting to get out of my apartment for so long I may have made a bad choice. I think if I had to I could get my hours back though. I'm just not real sure that I can make it with out that money. Packing is no treat either. I own entirely too much crap and the thought of moving it across the street makes me want to cry. Oh well wish me luck.

My love for Twilight!

Twilight is an epic love story, it is a modern day Gone With The Wind. I avided reading the books as long as I could. Then one day I went the the store and bought the first book. I started reading and I found that I could never put it down. I was reading it at work, getting into trouble. Neglecting my housework to read all the time. It was really effecting my sleep, maybe a few hours a night. The books give people hope that no matter who you are or where you are at in your life, LOVE can find you anywhere. Never be afraid to  just love who you love. It makes me crazy waiting for the rest of the movies to come out. I want to be able to see them all now. I just want to see what my mind has read. There are people ouy there way more into this than me. I think that Stephanie Meyer is a absolute genius.

Pain In The You Know What!

All I have to say is never, ever, ever, never, ever have kids with just anyone. Have safe sex, this is important advice. I'm telling you the father of my son is off his rocker. He thinks he knows everything and that his way is the only way. Well guess what I'm not gonna waste my time argueing with him all the time. I do things my way. He thinks my 4 year old needs to sleep 12-14 hours a night, I'm sorry I do not agree. I think that 9-11 hours is plenty. Somebody please tell me if I am wrong. I need some serious advice on how to deal with my situation. He is making me crazy. I feel sorry for other people out there trying to deal with there lives. It's all a huge mess.

Halloween Night!

Tonight was Halloween and I spent the day with my boyfriend. Our day was pretty uneventful. My ex took my son trick or treating because today was his day to have him. He thinks I'm a crappy mother for not wanting to go with them. I see it way different. I was raised in a split home, so I am used to how things go. I know how holidays get spent and days split up. He grew up in the same house with his mom and dad. He doesn't understand that our son will not grow up like he did because of that. I am excited though because Halloween is on my day next year. We will have so much fun.
I decided I'm gonna tell you a few things about myself-
*I'm outspoken and I say what I think.
*I like to have a good time.
*I have  good sense of humor.
*I love movies, all kinds.
*I think O.J. is a murderer.
*I like roses and lilies.
*I like to own nice things.
*I may have a shopping problem, I pay my bills but, if I were ever married it would be wise for my husband to control our finances.
*I can't watch scary movies alone.
*I get horrible nightmares.
*My mother is more like my child then me her child.
*I like to make jewelry.
*I own way too many clothes.
*I am horrible at doing laundry and dishes.
These are just a few of the things people may need to know about me.

A Little More About Me And A Little About Nothing!

So I left off talking about where I come from. Not to speak bad about my parents because I wouldn't do that but, I will tell you the truth about them. My parents are both alcoholics, my mother is way worse than my dad by far. So I really wasn't supervised like I should have been when I was younger. My parents are divorced, have been since I was a baby. So I lived with my dad til I was about 10, them I went to live with mom. We moved to this small town when I was 16. I never went to high school here because my mom diver made me go. So I never graduated school and imagine how I met my friends. I met them at parties, people drinking all these kids had grown up with each other. Mom didn't really care what I did, she let me go where I wanted and do what I wanted with who I wanted.
I spent alot of my life making big mistakes. Mistakes that are still following me around as an adult. Things people remember about me that even sometimes I don't remember. So my past is not the best people have spend alot of time talking about me. This is one of the reason my boyfriend and I fight so much. He thinks people judge him in  negative way for being with me. They can't except the fact that I'm older and more resonsible. I sometimes wonder though after this many years can he not just take me as I am.
If you guys actually knew me you would never believe some of the things that I let slide from him. I am a strong outspoken woman, for the most part. He is the only person on the planet I don't stand up to. No, he is not physical at all and I'm not afraid of him. He would never ever put his hands on any woman. He does get really hurt sometimes and says things, I know he's just rying to hurt my feelings.

New subject for awhile (Told you I would jump around alot). Somebody tell me what you think of jealousy?
I am dating a guy who is so insecure and jealous and I think it hurts his feelings sometime because I am not jealous. If something legitimately shady happens of course I will call you on it. But, something stupid like looking at girls and talking to girls doesn't bother me at all. Is this normal or not? I really want some feedback here.

I think I'm done spilling my guts for now, I am gonna watch a little Tom and Jerry with my son and try to get him to take a nap. Good luck to me right. Talk at you later. I apologize if the structure of my blog gets on your nerves be patient with me didn't make it real far in English class.

Welcome to my life!

First of all, I'll explain what this is about. I have always been told I could write a book about my life, so I kind of am. I will share stories with you about the random crazy things that happen to me everyday. I would love for you to comment on any of this with your own stories.

I like in one of the most boring places in the world, Nebraska. I'm sure there are other places worse but, I surely wouldn't know that. I live in a town of a couple thousand people. I have two larger cities very close and they both have a couple hundred thousand people. For those of you reading this from big cities, you can imagine what I am living without.
This is a place where, if you dress in the latest fashions and walk down the street people think you are, "on drugs". The people here are all crazy, all they do is talk about everyone else. I mean everyone is talking about someone and since there isn't that many people, everyone knows everyones business.
Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I am 27 years old and I have a 4 year old son named Treyton. His father and I are not together, beings he is the craziest weirdo on the planet. I mean this guy needs to be locked up. He is a good dad for the most part, he lacks common sense sometimes. I have joint custody of Treyton with his dad. We live in a small two bedroom apartment and for the most part mind our own business.
I have been dating the same guy off and on for the last 6 years, he is not my son's father. We fight like cats and dogs. Alot of which is my fault, I have made alot of mistakes. To understand my life now and who I am maybe I should tell you about my childhood a little bit. I think to understand me you would have to understand my mother. The person who raised me through the time when I was most impressionable.
I will continue to post stories about my friends, co-workers, enemies, parents, my son, just about anyone I feel like talking about. Sorry I just cut off in the middle of nowhere, I have to leave for work. Please be patient this may happen alot.